I have learned much about Pilates this term, things i did not expect. I do not lke Pilates has much s I  do Yoga, and sometimes the moves are hard for me and cause pain. but once again going into Pilates i realized much of what I learned studing Martha Gram[back roll downs for instance] is the same as Pilates and the core strengthening is actually really good for me, as is just trying to adopt better posture. my back has been broken 5 times,the first and worst was my ex was shacking my son out of control, he had pushed me to the floor, i had cancer at the time, and was very ill, but i made an incredible leap up ,over my ex's head[he was 6'1'] and grabbed my baby, i put him under me on the floor, he smashed by back with a savage kick, had i not been over my son, he would have been killed.so i have to keep reminding myself, when i hurts like this, that it was a darn good thing it was my back instead of my baby's head![even after a big back operation they thought i would be in a wheel chair the rest of my life, i had cancer, a broken back and was starving and had to feed my baby. i could get no social programs because my husband made a lot of money and worked for the government, to fed us! i went out and juggled fire ,with cancer, a broken arm, and a broken  back! with my baby on my back!, I can't and would not make this stuff up! to quote RMHC]this term i fell behind ,i was very sick early in term, then swamped wiht cleaning and preparing for the holidays, only now am i trying to catch up. And my back throbs!

Also remember 2 weeks i could not even get on the computer for class , even though i pulled myself out of bed,[ouch!]and got down to the library in plenty of time for class, yet i still kept going! my car was destroyed last Saturday, the second car that has been destroyed of mine sense i came to Wenatchee, about 12 years ago,[ i hope this one is salvage able or i get enough money for a good vehicle!]and god i need to move! all by aholes i don't know, have noting to do with me[use me, violate me ,or my kids ,youwill die poorer than i ever was, same thin i said to Epstein, he was a billionaire stocking me wi under age kids, he died penniless in jail]i never stole any car, nor did anything else wrong, but i was blown up n mine, at east this time i wasn't in it when they destroyed it! then late last Friday night they tried to break in my back door, that is distressing, adds to sleep depravation, and all the time tortured with illegal surveillance and repeated torture, torture in any country on earh and a billion times worse than everything bad i have done my whole life combined, all because violation of me was used for illegal stealing intellectual property, and of course, violation of privacy is rape.yet i am coming back to health, i need to lose 10-15 pounds to help my back[slowly and not more than that!] carting things is the hardest on my back, i do miss my car, i will see if the mechanical class can help me, they had me buy a new battery[$165.00!!!!]and installed it , but i still always had to keep charging it, i am hoping they will lok at it and tell me if it is wort saving! The ugly hate crimes i endure are from those doing illegal surveillance to steal intellectual property, they are losing money now! last night i made a new kind of menorah and a video i need to put on you tube, it will help poor people to celebrate the light. With an old cake pan and candles, the goodness of light can become an experience for anyone.i still have no spacefor my native American medicine circles, [i do a kind of self made yoga with them]i do miss being able to do deep prayer and meditation, i have never lite a candle or prayed without death threats and hate crimes for the last 30 years or so, it is ever hard!i coined the phrase 'global warming' in 1973, sense then i have never had a lie not harassed, the fact tat my work is now proved to be true and accurate [it was 70 degrees in Wenatchee yesterday-Dec 1st, the last ting an environmentalist wants to say is 'i told you so!']I went 40 days without a bite to eat,in america, i have never done anything immoral or unethical, ironically that is why my work made billions and te tugs harassing me are worth nothing. all my work has been plagiarized and mostly ruined, i can not allow that to happen  to my new work, perpetual, safe none polluting renewable safe energy,nor allow this technology to make more 'technology salves' treated like dirt has i have been by te scum or the earth[Saturday i was viciously attacked on the bus, twice men have stocked me from he bus and assaulted me]i keep going and realize for their to be any economy, any arts, any science that is truly to safe guard humanity, i must be paid my royalties and ver soon, the radiation merciless accumulates and the planet warms.you know the effects of some of the disaster that is destroying this earth first hand, above all we must stop techno-slavery to save the environment and give a chance to future generations. i think you teach polatates better than the other lady, my personal opinion, but you are really becoming a better and better teacher, follow your instincts , take chances, you do a really good job and are still getting better and yoga is an endless sea of potential growth to learn it! still trying, i will make up at last 4-5 more videos this week, before next Thursday HOPE,under torture, but still HOPE[holidays are hard, 6 family members have been killed for those stolen royalties, if Wenatchee had of said no1 my brother ,a decorated war hero, and my dark skinned Hawaiian and first nation nephew i raised alone, bot would be alive! it is hard!i do so miss my life and freedom and kids and above all understand that clock is ticking has radiation pours into the environment for my work to turn the tide!]HOPE