the east coast and mid west are finding out what we out west have been dealing with, sometimes for months at a time, the inability to safely go out side. we wrap scarves around our heads,pull down our hoodies, then we had masks from the pandemic, so we wear those too, we look like a bunch of folks, both male and female wearing hijab.with my emphazima and being a 5 time cancer survivor who has survived so much violence, and hate crimes, taking the beautiful sky i love with thick blackish gray air, that burns with every breath, it was a realization of what i had warned for years,massive forest fires ,i said in 1973, in my paper where i coined the phrase 'global warming;.and my beloved forest, the Shata area, the real TALL trees, Douglas furs, Panderosa pines, giant Cedar,etc...and my beloved giants, the Sequoia, the Red Woods, global warming is real, and when where i learned and grew with my folks, grand parents and medicine woman teacher, the great Klamath forest, where my dad taught me to hunt and my mom taught me to love the woods, the Upquils, the Clackamus river and forest where i played ,hiked and loved my cats and dogs,and above all my child,to steal my royalties they came after one of the most joyous persons that ever lived, i had survived a painful ugly cancer, got away from an abuser[i thought], and was doing work, extremely difficult that i loved.Later, with sever crones disease, i stood up to Epstein, he was a key factor in my stocking, in the hate crimes i endured in Tucson and Salem, and Portland.he was killed by the the vary covert organization that he worked with to exploit my writing, to rape my private life.he leaned againts this fancy sports car, with a body guard armed to the teeth,and sneered 'you can do nothing' at that time i was being stocked by very young little girls that i knew were being used in the sex for profit criminal industry, i was being tortured with repeated hate crimes, my life was hell, and the crones disease was killing me, my side was swollen up like a volley ball , i threw down my back pack, i was limping could only walking with my cane pulling me forward, i stood in the heat, and told him the truth, he sneered, 'sorry, your going to die' 'NO! i screamed at him, it is you that are going to die, and really die, for the filth that you are doing , for torture and and violation of me and the all the other innocent beings you are using! you and all those that profit from or use illegal surveillance! you will die poorer than i was made, poorer than i ever was, with no hope! you will be hated and penniless and alone, i will live and tell the truth and have a life again, you will remember what i say now when the time comes'.' his body guard was caring serious hardware, but at times like these ,alone and threatened by such evil, i seem to be touched by a righteous rage that knows no fear, i was really going to take on these young ,bigger than me, healthy well armed goons! then i felt a gentle hand on my shoulder, it was a young African American man, he whispered ,'Hope go now! he had picked up m pack and was forcing me to carry it and gently pushing me away.as the two thugs laughed he lead me down the side walk, 'Hope those guys are killers, he said quietly' 'yes, i know, they use kids i raged, 'yes' he said, and they are torturing you', he looked at me, i know pain, his face was agony, that got through to me, 'i took some money ,me and my pals to stock you last week, you probably don't remember,' 'yes' i said, 'i do, 'well he said' i was wrong, we thought it was just a game, but we know that you were sick and alone ,we knew. can you forgive me?' that is when i knew that some using me and stocking me were really just playing, they did not realize how terrible what they were doing is, and in that second i knew they could change! 'of course,for my part i do forgive you,' he and his friends had only jeered at me, but hate crimes add up, so i said 'there is still though the Karma'. 'well' he said 'they are doing a lot of this stuff being done to you, he is very rich and hates you for being a feminist and child protector, ,when i saw you today i realized they were really trying to kill you' 'yes' i said, 'they TRY but will fail. but hate crimes are terrible, 'i was afraid, he laughed, 'if you attacked them they would shoot you' i laughed i grabbed his arm, but you tried to help me anyway! Good on you!' remember all the many people, like this man that day, that did try and help, that kept me alive, and knew the scum, Epstein, Harvy Weinstien, the dark illegal part of the government, in CIA or NSA, prison system, those trying to control media, etc, that kept the hate and stocking up, they attacked a poor hard working mom, in the arts, a fellow performer and writer, that is why the corporations that attacked me supports child molesters, and rapist, it is all illegal, so they can black mail and own their operatives.that is why the far right march and vote in lock step. my new friend and i parted an i went on to the drug store and got my medicine. it is no joke, Epstein died alone in a cell hated by everyone. Sunday has i was stocked by 3 separate thugs i was reminded of Epstein, i am sick and still going on, you out there have a choice! the bigger they are the harder they fall, violators die poor! last year when i was attacked and both wrists broken, i had a wonderfully young Chicano nurse,i had endured so many hate crimes by the time i got to her, but her gentle kindness helped so much, we know who we are! speak out against illegal surveillance because the real air we must all breath can not be a toxic cloud of smoke! i hang on with safe renewable energy, to survive and have ANY economy, freedom truth and restitution, pay me my royalties[or equivalency] to Roberta May Hope Caster, and my kids, hope under torture, stay non violate, stay honest, use truth as a weapon, we will and must defeat them! June 28 202 democracy now post