after every mass shooting the simple message that no one is being 'allowed' to speak out loud is simple, why are you allowing violation? you are suppose to be against VIOLATION, but it as continued on for year after tortured year to me. ever year i hear, for 20 years; 'sorry, luv u. your going to die, die poor' i did no crime, i was an innocent woman working as a writer, actor, juggler, clown, poet environmentalist, teacher and song writer, human rights abdicate, but above all a loving family member and mom. i was a 5 time cancer survivor, an abused woman getting out of a rotten marriage, i was shot at holding my baby 2 times with automatic weapons. 6 members of my family were killed to plagiarize my writing, my life was publicly raped for the amusement of the most viscous, hypocrites, rapist and child molesters, thieves and vile freaks that ever lived on this planet, so committed to the silence of maintaining illegal surveillance for slavery. every year the mass shootings after went up, we give no hope to those of us that support freedom and hope and want to stop violation! the shooters are hated because their lives are often in despair they act out of some horrible mind control violence. despair. as the little boy that 3 months[app] after i meant him in the park where i had juggled all day by the lake, killed his 4 friends and himself.i and was showing him my juggling stuff, a lot of that stuff i made,' i am proud of little i can do, to make my own juggling stuff. it was a beautiful ,hot day, the sun was shining and green only Washington state knows, and someone turned on the tape, in the house across the street from where i was showing him my juggling equipment, waiting for a bus,'your going to die, die poor, sorry, luv u, your going to die, die poor' a phrase i had already heard sense 2004, he believed it was directed at him! i assured him, no they were torturing me with the tape[or whatever sound device they were using] and he looked at me in despair, he was having problems with his girl friend, as a teacher i immediately re-evaluated how old i thought this boy was, he was one of those kids that grows late, i believed him to be a Mexican as their are many Mexican Americans in our community, it matters not to me what race a being is, it is just a toll we use to try and help in our communication. what i did not realize was he was First nation, a whole different level of trauma, what i did not know is that he knew i was also First nation. i look white, but i am also first nation! he told me he was forced to be sexual in front of cameras, i was horrified, from an innocent conversation about crafts i made to total evil violation! again i assumed, as is all too much of with the monsters stocking me, they were using illegal migrant kids as objects, no he was a reservation child, i learned after he made the news, just a few months later.because my famous children's books were plagiarized and published in Europe, his being Native American takes on great significant, ever thing first nation was removed from those book, the old 'kill the Indian and save the man' used to torture and kill so many first nation people! i tried desperately to get him help, rape crisis, children's protective, suicide hot line, we had a very enjoyable conversation up to that point, but he KNEW how i had been raped and used, he KNEW! he said his parents were being threatened and he feared to tell them for their own safety, too well i knew the cruelty and truth of his words, YES! this is a devise many abusers use.he was in despair and agony, i tried to get him to tell police, councilors, parents, his family was threatened, he believed ALL law enforcement was going along with illegal surveillance, NO! i yelled, ; he was just a little boy, smart, rebellious, i had him tagged as a class clown, one of those funny kids growing up in a world of meaningless sound bites giving meaning with humor to an insane world,, now i was frightened for him! i had helped stop a pedophile ring in Parker AZ years before, a fundamentalist minister,is now doing time in state Penn for the rest of his life for raping kids, they got the tapes he made! those kids, because i was coming back and juggling after the assault with a base ball bat [i took 40 blows] in 2002, were in a group, calling me an abomination of nature' because i survived that savage beating and came back and juggled!when i questioned them the truth began to come out. but this kid was more isolated and where the others were a group of kids being raped, this kid was alone. or at least believed he was, i do not know.he ran away and i was left standing waiting for a bus i had to catch, [15 of my cars have been destroyed from violence] helpless, trembling in the sun. this was a little boy who a few months later turned his terror into the shooting of himself and 4 friends. i do not know if he was being illegally used for porn, i dod not know if the 'tapes' where being played on him, as the victim of these assaults on humanity, i can only try and make sense out of this senseless cruelty. he did not believe me when i said it was done to me to plegerize my intellectual property, he had to grasp of how much my intellectual and creative property are worth,he though they were torturing me because i was not sexually active and they weren't getting their ugly rapist ya-yas off, and making money for porn, perhaps that IS what they were doing to him and threatening his dear friends and family.i had been stocked by Jerod Lofton, the Gifford shooter, he was troubled mean little kid, this kid was a delight and a child of light and happiness, dear GOD people why are men[ and boys] killing their families, why are they killing their wives or co workers, or strangers? what drives a kid to shoot others/i know despair, none better, 6 members of my family were killed to steal my royalties! NO MORE! this what this sweet boy said to me'if you can't stop them, how can we kids stop them?'i gasped and was speechless,'you are the most talented person i have ever meant, i love the dance and juggling, and you are old, no offense but your old[i nodded to someone that's a child i am ancient!] 'you have been kind and thoughtful, your good. how can we kids stop them?' he was sobbing ,and before i could do anything he ran off. i am old, i could not follow, and what could i do if i did catch him? he refused to tell me his name, or school, yet still i reported it to the rape crisis line, but i knew this one 'got away' the monsters that rape me rape kids, they kill creative folks that are not able to control, i am alive because my work is so damn valuable, my family is safe because i speech out! and my new work is renewable safe, clean energy. a lot of folks died from gun violence this year, more died of cancer and climate disaster.a lot of folks are scared and injured from gun violence, more are scared and injured from cancer, illness, and killing our planet, more are scared from the neo slavery that is illegal surveillance done with rape and to enslave!i died 3 times behind bars ,innocent of any crime, still i speech out, he was right, i have fought these monsters with truth for many,many years!these shooting come from despair driven by the lie about illegal surveillance. we will make make no dent in this tragedy, without the truth, the dead are beyond our help!where people using this child or was he terrified from what they were doing to me? i do not know, but we must face the reality and ask these questions, yesterday i was stocked going to the post office, by the slime of the earth, to hide the evil that is illegal surveillance for profit is. is also killing our economy, our world, our children's lives with pollution, nuclear and fossil fuels, and destroying their dreams,NO! we must end violation to truly stop violation! it was hard for me to write this, my deepest care and respect for all the victims of this senseless violence! to survive, truth, freedom, restitution, privacy, pay me my royalties, to Roberta May Hope Caster, Hope under torture, or their will be no intellectual property for any,no matter what they think they own now! i work, pray for none violence every second and say NO! to the fake, the evil. the user abusers, weather in media, the arts, government or the church! to survive we must have truth! my blessing and heart felt condolences on all you scared hurting survivors, like me.. be honest, be none violent ,HOPE sept 26 2023 d. n. post