Namastea, well i have made it to class through ice and snow and living on a steep windy hill, but i have to miss class  Monday, so maybe we can do zoom. for the fire department smoke detector check. This is hard because of the waste of time and money for public employees, and the hypocrisy of it. up here where i live this is this gruesome hill full of ugly clap board, but made to look expensive  houses on a hill, it is called 'loony hill' in a town that lives in the shadow, as all the west  of forest fires, these stupid things are built one on top of another on a hill with razor sharp narrow turns on small narrow streets. if there was a fire every house up there would be burned to the ground!someone in the government took a big bribe to all this fire trap! it over looks  over one of the parks up here, a park i have went through 1,000's of 1,000's of hate crimes,stocking and ugliness, bit also where i have done some incredible juggling and music. i love this Lake, the Native American lore about this lake is rich, deep and hard to get at,it is one of the 'seven healing lakes of the Northwest'.i used to prey everyday as i would juggle, struggling with ill health and of course sense i have lived in this area 2 terrible violent attacks, one split my head open, the 2017 attack, from behind on Wenatchee ave, and the attack of DEC 2021 when i was thrown to the ground and both wrists broke, i never juggled in that park, not once, with out hate crimes ,stocking and death threats.not even once any where for the last 20 years, without death threats and hate crimes. still many kids[of all ages] liked my juggling and my friend, a wonderful funny woman in a wheel chair, that was supportive of my vision and the Chicano Family with the downs child i did have as the only friends i have had up, and them i have only seen a brief couple of times.. in 16 years of juggling in this area and they are the only 2 folks i ever really meant. but there and in Lincoln Park and lake side i 'invented 'throwing poi, it changed the art from simply spinning to a true art form. of course i DID not really invent throwing poi, i a grew up among folks that were First Nation, native Americans, that throw bola, an ancient form of hunting.from a generation that taught me many things that are very rare and beautiful, BOLA [poi] Native Americans dance with small Indian club also. i do not know how much the people do that now, my commitment to these art forms helped really start rythmatic gymnastics the Olympic sport has we know it today. it is also ancient, but i first did shows, with dance, meaning and purpose, specking truth to power, but with music, dance and Indian clubs, i think  they are called that because of the know history of them in India and and Iran, but Native Americans all over the 2 continents of the Americas, did dances with small clubs and wands, Indian Hoop dancing and the Hawaiian Hula hoop have become know beautiful dance objects, and of course 'staff'. i combined the old Anglo Saxon staff with the native American spear dance. still walking, tight rope and what we call 'silks'were also flying post games done all over first Nation lands. Post dancing and terrain gymnastics and rock dancing, river dancing, also recognized art forms from my people. when i took this to my street performing, I developed the intrepid clown  Bob{Bobby, Robby, Roberta May but don't all me late for dinner] Galileo. A clown of wonder of the universe, I started the slam street dancing movement when cool African american kids shaw my show in New Orleans. i also did comedy with truth to power'. 'journey with purpose', as i began to study yoga and Martha Graham i added everything i learned to juggling  and Celtic dance;  like Scottish sword dance, adding always to the art and made a show that i lived off  with my own writing and juggling. always trying to publish, always stopped,by a group of skills working to exploit me. NO MORE!]of course the music was rock, but also i write pop, country, rap, r and b, jazz, classical, operas and classical and folks and hip hop,.the stick i juggle, i might have been first to incorporate it in a speaking musical dance street show, is an ancient chinese a martial arts, like nun chucks and  hip and dancing with silks and ribbon stick[yes the double barrel fishing hook on the stick, that form of ribbon stick  is mine] as are sand balls, taken and refined and made easy from the idea of flour balls. The women of Tango Tango are the best ball jugglers in the world, i introduced their existence as the best ball jugglers to the world, for hundreds[thousands?] of years they 'showered' a hard juggling pattern, a kind of nut that grows on their island. so i was struggling, poor. Sometimes  hungary, i took the life I had after I survived terminal cancer, the only long time cancer survivor of one type of cancer[now over 50 years!]and created a new kind of street shows with object manipulation, mime, ballet [French and Russian] music and comedy, all against sexism, racism, and pro WOMEN'S RIGHTS, all totally supporting the rights of the disabled and and CHILDREN RIGHTS! i have did 1,000's of storytelling, juggling,mime shows for the disabled, nursing homes, homeless and special needs children, kids [from 2-122 years old] with cancer and so much other radiation related disease, i added that to my anger over cancer caused by industrial nuclear waste, a new Olympic sport and a new way to help folks and spread news often outside the censored news out lets. that is the holocaust in my own life when they fight holocaust terrible cancer, how i suffered with graves disease and cancer and the r related illness from the disease these s that these cancers make a survivor endure! that is why no one had a right to EVER violate my life, use rape, slavery [stealing royalties] not and have anything of value in their own lives! When I testified against the corporations that destroyed my health at 20 years old, in 1984, that speech may have saved millions of peoples lives; and that day I have endured constant harassment, and with terminal cancer at 20 my life was hell before they started these hate crimes. this became the gas lighting violation i have been forced to endure, i have lived my trying to get away from and stop! I was always considered a good club passer, not just sharps and fire, but it was in passing clubs other jugglers were able to see me, where it was well known, i excelled. new patterns, tricks and dance, and gymnastics incorporated with passing. I have never been very flexible! YOGA HELPS! but having my back broken 5 times all by strangers to try and exploit me, except for the worst break, in 1992, when  I saved my baby's' skull from a violator's foot [my ex] and my lower back was smashed. sense then back pain was always another constant physical pain companion. Thank Goodness for YOGA! in all my work, weather a show for African American gang kids [they learned to juggle just as fast as any of the many athletic workshops i have done for kids!] to getting folks to stop hard drugs, aAA, etc...always the beliefs and philosophy of the ancients, Astrology, kabbalah, by christian consciousness[not the hypocrisy that is being used by the so called christian fascist right, the real Christianity] through it all the work of Joseph Cambelle, Gandhi, William Shackspear, William Blake, the work of Fraser and bullfinch. the stories, both Celtic and First nation,, the tree of Odin, the compassion of st.Patrick, human rights, to choose to ask questions to  learn to grow! Whether I was opening for a rock band, or doing a show for field workers' children, I always  had as a tool the truth of YOGA! I learned to love all ancient myths, the wisdom of the Bhagavad Gita and the Celtic fairy stories I learned from the old country[ there ARE elves!] or the wonder and grandeur of the first Nation stories I grew up with! but the really hard part,has far as work goes, was always the science, being denied again and again of degrees i knew i had earned[maybe by now about 4 phds!]the term 'Global Warming'1973, the work on how to contain radiation, of course a work in progress, but almost all of unknown, i started in late 1970'.and dying of crones being stocked with electronic bugging, torture and hate crimes by ahole that I later learned were named 'Epstein 'and Paddick[ Las Vegas shooter]when i say i wrote the number one best selling kids stories and they took ALL the good stuff out to make kids muggles, i am not joking! i love comedy, but nothing is funny about in child molestation, suffering, injustice, 6 members of my family killed to exploit my intellectual and creative work! nothing is funny about the suffering of cancer, disabilities or violation,and violation, done with this hypocrisy  it is trying to make the worst slavery ever invented, to have any economy, any environment, it must be stopped! still under torture, violation, sick, poor i have went onto make the world a new way to have cheap, renewable,safe clean energy. must now ,immediately, have my work on renewable safe energy, i created it in Tucson in 2004, sick, dying[at the time from crohn's disease, i still suffer from irritable bowel disease, horribly at times!] But the worst emotional pain, beside the killing of 6 beloved family members, has been the separation of me and my child, more horrible than anyone that has not faced death and given birth could ever begin to realize. how children have been used as 'objects' is terrible, for me and for our entire world. I was  raising 4 kids I loved but never had custody of, never got to be the mother, then having that ripped away from me is a suffering I can ever find words to convey.  I am well educated and well read, but never in all my reading, learning, songs, or movies, have I ever seen or heard of the joy and love that existed between me and my child. Maybe it was the amount of suffering I endured with the cancer I faced and endured when I had him. We had a blast!our home was the only truly happy home, in honesty and light i have ever seen or even imagined and have seen and read much, i taught myself to read and was reading well at 3 years old,but nothing compared to the goodness of me with my child, to have people destroy this for profit is abomination!They did it for profit, to support what illegal surveillance is, exploitation, all people give up any value or meaning if they try to use me in this hideous way! it is amazing surviving Menicular cancer [2x's !] but surviving being blown up in my car, publicly raped, surviving the beating with the baseball bat club, the surviving,of mass gang hate crimes,seeing my work plagiarized and ruined, enduring the criminal injustice system and 3 heart attacks from drugs it was known i was allergic too that stopped my heart 3 times[5 strokes] from having forced induced heart attacks from forced drugging, on drugs it was known i was allergic too,knowing i was guilty of NO crime, i was locked up to steal my royalties, but surviving it all and yearning to hold my child, have a functional relationship with him, keeping alive under all that is a MIRACLE!  How I kept us alive is MIRACULOUS! Always the work of yoga has always helped, Yoga is nonsecular, it does not need to be spiritual, but it can be a path that is a true path to help improve spirituality! Of course this needs a spiritual and ethical true behavior, foundation to make this happen, and that is not taught in modern popular western YOGA. It makes the yoga discipline open to all. But I do grieve over the use of spiritual yoga,the physical yoga of the west can open the path to the spiritual, but no matter how all the moves are mastered, it is only a shadow of real YOGA! the commercialism of Yoga, everything from making it 'cool' and it is cool, to selling it. but everything can be used for evil, my sweet  Gaia tortured under pollution, loving enchanting Christian based [like Tolkien and C,S, Lewis] children's stories i wrote, used for propaganda to make kids think they are muggles,NO! It paved the way for the use of the christian wonder and truth for mindless hypocrisy, and right wing hypocrisy. etc...still  i teach truth hoping against all odds, that through it all light will somehow get through, the truth will come out and i will be prosperous enough to have my life, my kids in freedom and privacy and actually PAID for some of my work! i hang on with renewable, safe, clean, cheap, safe energy, under torture, violation, ugliness and evil, violence and injustice for hope for the world to survive, people must help me because i did none of this injustice to myself, it was done for profit with miss used technology. a new slavery for government and cooperation complete control, that will destroy the economy and environment! that is the true definition of fascism, the union of corporations and government with no truth or moral restrains.!at the terrible expense of human rights and the environment! up against this i stand like the REAL David, a simple juggler, mom, clown,dancer,environmentalist,poet under torture, with a slingshot against nuclear plants plant giants, against the richest military industrial complex, prison system commiseration camps, injustice, more well funded than any ever know, i have stood, at times alone with my slingshot filled with the diamond rock of truth, trying against all odds, as only a Native DREAMER could [what the Nez Perse call our shamans]a diamonds of truth is in my sling, and  half blind from violence, i KNOW my aim is right my cause was always life, freedom, beauty, honesty on earth! if this sounds a bit grandiose, remember i have lived this and have the yeats of terrible suffering and scars to prove it! [my inner clown,a term i invented as i did the term 'inner child', laughs] it is love for my kids, for life, for art, for dance for the universe unfolding, for  mother earth, the sweet gem of life that created CHRIST,, for trees, for animals, for goodness and wonder  that has fueled me to fight despair with truth and HOPE! but the suffering, hypocrisy and injustice are a reality. Only with truth will humanity and life on our sweet planet have a chance to survive. My goal this term is too grow healthy enough to survive the winter that makes all people with no thyroid suffer! to Keep practicing and live for a spring of strength and being able to publish and dance freely in truth! to survive the spring that will be paying me my royalties and suffering,to publish my work on energy that will be hope for the earth. I will make up all the  yoga videos, i sometimes have to have them stacked up due to ill health, but I get it done! to put even more focus in my journey with purpose, to teach others every time they even try to exploit another they are condemning themselves and all of any real value they could ever have for themselves. and I pray for freedom, for Ukraine, for Israel and Gaza, for the children slaves in the Congo working in toxic Uranium mines, I pray most to have my kids and the truth, to see even some of my beautiful work published and it was meant to be!  as the suffering and injustice destroyed me to where even i could not still create some of that beautiful work, well yes, the innocence and sweetness i first created it with has been so tortured i have been changed, but i recreate the joy of wonder at life and like the Phoenix, and know that, yes that poem was plagiarized, became the stupid best seller, 'broken wings' i grow stronger and greater in spiritual understanding. the give me a call, emails are hard for the visually impaired, if you  can spare a moment, this is my paper for my plan for this term, being here, writing this is itself a big victory over darkness! but for the world to live i must be able to stop technology surveillance for profit, pure evil that destroys any trying to use it to exploit,i must be paid to publish. the torture and violation,and hypocrisy must be stopped for the world to have real HOPE! it  must be stopped! I do so miss a life to live, my royalties, my work and to have pets and a private free life with my kids,  i fight overwhelming odds and despair from what I know is right, for life on earth. it is a irony that although i did dance, and studding, my first object manipulation was with a slingshot, 'my rod and my staff they comfort me' [psalms 23] throwing a staff, yoga, dance, music can keep the way open for those that can follow, but all will be open to those that can follow. but all will be lost without truth, Namastea HOPE